just

so you know

i know that's not the problem for me i'm not fixated on what drug you're taking it's not about the drug your life is horrifying believe me i know where you are

i could not fault you for trying to find any escape possible i am literally telling you that there is an alternative but i'm also going to tell you is not going to be

a feel good process are you interested in how i did it or not oh yeah i had to become okay with sitting in the absolute and utter complete

torment

of what was underneath that addiction i made a practice of doing so with people who could sit with me in that way what i'm telling you is there is no way out but that way i want you to imagine this way so you've got this dark deep horrifying cavern when you start to dip down into that place you need something immediately to pick yourself out of it right yes and i'm telling you literally the answer is to go all the way down

i was right when i said i was fine i knew it

sit in it with someone with someone