i always thought that if i could stay sober on supposed to be amazing and i never felt amazing staying sober never know i mean i stayed sober a lot of times before in the past and i never felt amazing and that's why i would always relapse this time i told my sponsor do all twelve steps no matter what that was plan a and no matter what was going through my head i made that commitment to complete all twelve steps and i worked all twelve steps and that's what the twelve steps is having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps because that's what we want
