i wish i knew was gonna happen earlier is as i've grown and changed into more closer to who i want to be the people who have seen me grow up and knew the kid that i used to be or not really okay with seeing me continue to change into who i want to be and i'm not blaming them at all but it's just an observation i don't know if a lot of people can relate to that but i do know that a lot of people can relate to the feeling of being misunderstood there's something very painful about being misunderstood by like people you've known your whole life or like rejected i honestly i don't really understand why they do it um and that that's probably just my lack of knowledge it's like it's probably just uncomfortable and it probably just reminds them of the dreams that are not chasing but but i will say significantly more people have unfriended me and resisted seeing me change than have actively rooted for me which is interesting and i think a lot of people might be experiencing that too so if you know someone who's going after their dreams and trying to change your lives i think it would be nice to reach out to them because oftentimes that's that could be all it takes to keep them going