the first attempts forward i took in the gym i went to this swim size class jesus it was me in this like really fat young guy not anywhere shape than me and like seven women over seventy and they could out swim me it was pretty damn humiliating and so i did a semester of that got myself in somewhat better shape and then i started to go to the gym to lift weights now it was also rough because i'd be underneath the bloody bench press trying to lift seventy five lbs and you know some muscle headed

would come over and tell me how to do it and it's like yeah thank you but it's embarrassing and lots of times people won't do things like go to the gym because they're so embarrassed about how they look or what sort of shape they're in and it's a pain to start at the bottom but you start at the bottom where you're weak and if you want to rectify what's weak you have to accept the fact that you're at the bottom and that the first steps are going to be painful