a mother who loved me dearly we were doing a play and i couldn't afford to pay the credit card because he had rented a van for us that bill was three hundred dollars and three hundred dollars so my mother was like thirty million so we're sitting in the house and she was saying listen i'm tired of this and todd are you doing this please just stop it just stop and totally crying about it and the woman loved me loved me lovely more than anything she said you know just give it up go get you a job working at the phone company and never going to make it with these plays have a sitting there in tears she was saying to me she turned around and she saw him and the blood drained from her face she'd said baby i'm so sorry i'm so sorry