yeah many of the success books that i was exposed to and all of the things that i read about outta be a really great person in life and how to make money and how to achieve your dreams it was like you have to specialize you have to pick one thing and you have to be really good at it for many many years and then maybe you will achieve the financial dreams that you have for yourself and it never felt right to me every time i tried to be one thing it felt like i was cutting off a limb and not being true to myself but it didn't have any other models really at that time that showed me a different path so that was probably one of the biggest things that i had to figure out